my knee hurts from running yesterday. started mid-way thru the day and i’ve been chewing tylenol q 4* ever since. yeah, i’ve seen the news the last two days. my liver is fine. i drink enough h20 to flush the system. not worried. in the least.
morning has been soft and lazy. hash-browns, eggs, coffee. sunshine on the paverstones. a little stephen king, Duma Key. nice. you’d think i’d be satisfied. and for the most part i am. on most days…
but, i’ve been disappointed in master, master as of late. he doesn’t want me. or, if he does it’s not with the same frequency as i want him. i get tired of him denying me. he claims he’s tired, and old. he actually said that. told me i should prolly trade him in on a newer model (in jest). and his little confession of sorts, perhaps should have made my heart and mood feel lighter, but it didn’t. i was still left feeling sad and undesired. he told me to wait until bedtime– that he would make love to me then. but last night brought him sleep, in his chair, while watching reruns. and in return it brought me a thicker blanket of loneliness.
(perhaps i have fireworks to look forward to this evening– what with it being the fourth and all)
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